okay ... as I'm anonymous anyway I'll be just straight honest. yesterday was a total mess ... a disaster. I didn't fulfill my mission and I fucked up my date ... I don't know what happend to me but in the middle of our so far entertaining conversation I got sucked up in a state of hyper-introversion ... I don't want to analyze now why that happend but the result was that I canceled the meeting quite abrubtly and said good bye. well, she's nice but I don't think she'll understand that.
but before the date I strolled through the city realizing that I'm just not able to give a compliment to a woman I'm not emotionally connected to ... maybe I'm too much of a perfectionist but there was something within me strictly refusing a to give a compliment without being totally honest ... ?! even when I saw a woman garbed individually I had no idea how to produce a compliment out of what I saw. I mean most girls don't garb in a way worth to be complimented - they just copy each other ...
on the other hand I don't want to lay the blame on womankind for my disabilities! maybe I should have just walk up to ten women in a row telling them "nice shoes!" and see what happens ... I'm pretty sure I should have done that at least.
I'm not going to give up on Day6 ... forget it! I already did several cold approaches ... I can do that too! but these problems brought me pretty much to a core question ... do I want to lie for the sake of women?
at least I discoverd a new way of scanning people around me. as I wanted to detect a woman as soon as possible to observe her and create a compliment, I discoverd that it's very interesting not to focus on people 10m away but more than 100m ... that's a totally new perspective.
well I did a actually one cold approach ... the best about it was that I DID it ... the rest ... oh my god (a real classic fucked up first cold approach in three months) :-D
many very fruitful phases of my life begun with such days ... I can do it - and I will!
but before the date I strolled through the city realizing that I'm just not able to give a compliment to a woman I'm not emotionally connected to ... maybe I'm too much of a perfectionist but there was something within me strictly refusing a to give a compliment without being totally honest ... ?! even when I saw a woman garbed individually I had no idea how to produce a compliment out of what I saw. I mean most girls don't garb in a way worth to be complimented - they just copy each other ...
on the other hand I don't want to lay the blame on womankind for my disabilities! maybe I should have just walk up to ten women in a row telling them "nice shoes!" and see what happens ... I'm pretty sure I should have done that at least.
I'm not going to give up on Day6 ... forget it! I already did several cold approaches ... I can do that too! but these problems brought me pretty much to a core question ... do I want to lie for the sake of women?
at least I discoverd a new way of scanning people around me. as I wanted to detect a woman as soon as possible to observe her and create a compliment, I discoverd that it's very interesting not to focus on people 10m away but more than 100m ... that's a totally new perspective.
well I did a actually one cold approach ... the best about it was that I DID it ... the rest ... oh my god (a real classic fucked up first cold approach in three months) :-D
many very fruitful phases of my life begun with such days ... I can do it - and I will!
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